Could you pls. tell me how do you read this (###) part


So it left you blinded
Soft and binded
tied to your angry chair

It raised it's hammer 
and smashed you under
yet still you seem to care
love and despair

It's one more bite 
A little closer to the bone
and the left side's gone
It never lasts that long

You look up now, eyes hollow
your weakness flows through the air
you clentch your fist
and smashed in guilt
child lost and without a ####

love and despair

It's one more bite 
A little closer to the bone
and the left side's gone
It never lasts that long

I don't want to..
I don't want to try
I don't want to cry
Oh yes, love she'll lie
I'm sick of all this

Now emptiness is upon you
as pain casts it's glassy stare
hates now the child that you raise
and the reason you gave
### mess that you made
If only you could be saved

but all the times that you prayed
were only washed down and drain
after all's said and done...
it will still be the same